I’ve been eyeing the mums at the grocery store for quite some time, telling myself I’ll buy some next visit.
But then I always let the cost of groceries and other expenses keep me from following through. It seems frivolous to buy flowers in today’s economy.
I’ve also had a lot on my mind to keep me from wanting to “worry” about some flowers. I’ve been feeling unsettled as of late and facing a lot of insecurity as JJ and I try to figure out exactly where to purchase a house and which church to call home. Buying flowers seems like such splurge, and do I really want the responsibility of caring for a plant that I’ll probably somehow manage to kill anyway?
Yesterday, a couple of women from the church we’ve been visiting came over for dinner. It was wonderful to express my desires and concerns to them and to hear their words of wisdom, encouragement, and advice as we seek out a church to belong here.
But more than anything, I was impacted by how God silently spoke to my heart as one of the ladies placed an unexpected gift for me on my counter—a pot full of red and yellow tinted mums.
That moment reminded me of how intimately He knows me. All my fears, insecurities, passions, dreams, and worries. And even my silliest and most simple of desires.
That evening, He provided me with a felt need to remind me once again that He knows ALL my needs.
I don’t have to figure it out.
And I don’t have to worry about the future.
Perhaps it’s enough to “worry” about watering my new pot of mums for today. And to be continually reminded that God will provide all my needs in due season.
“And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
Matthew 6:28-34 ESV
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